​Episode 1 - Everyone's A Critic

And so, this past thursday at 8.50pm on the ABC network, my fans, friends, haters and stalkers all sat in front of their TV wanting to either celebrate me or throw eggs at their TV screen, I don't know. But all they got were bits and pieces of me in the intro and in the teaser for next week's episode towards the end. 😝 My man with steel balls was disappointed. He said he texted everybody to watch and they now want a refund. 😂😂😂 BUT LOOK. THIS IS A FUCKING SERIES. 
And as what I had mentioned before publicly and on my radio interviews, TV BUSINESS IS CUT THROAT. You never know what would make into the final cut, you never know what exactly the directors want from you, you never know how you would be portrayed on screen after the editing process when the episodes go to air. You could have filmed ten hours for that episode and all it appears for, is thirty seconds. You have absolutely no control whatsoever especially when you film for the national broadcasting network #abcaustralia produced by film giant #matchboxpictures owned by #NBCuniversal!! 
On set, you DO NOT KNOW who your friend is and you certainly do not know who is your enemy who you thought was a friend. It's murky waters. Everybody is pretentious. When I signed on the filming contract, all of these had been stated very clearly in black and white (except for the friend and enemy part). It is even stated that producers have the right to cut you out completely after filming has ended. 
In the TV business, unless you are some huge celebrity with massive star power, you are close to being a dust. Well, I am a realist. I am very practical in nature and am very down to earth. I know what's going on. 
This first episode that went to air was actually an episode where we had already been filming midway into the series. When I received the call sheet from production for this episode, I was taken aback that I only had one scene to film, this I told my co-star Banya Michelle Rudo and speculated that I was not delivering and producers were not happy. Like I said before, anything can happen and I have seen other cast members who had filmed for this series being thrown out suddenly. I shuddered at that thought. 
By the time I was filming for this episode, I had already lost a lot of weight and friends were concerned. Producers also voiced their concern. On this day, I was given a heads up that an official photography session would be taking place for publicity material and so I decided to put on my custom tailored purple suit and jazzed it up with an outrageous brooch with white peacock feathers full of coins dangling off it and draped across the lapel on the left, all the way to my right shoulder. I wore it because a producer had told me before that they liked that suit (which I had worn for my final screen test way before actual filming started). 
As I arrived on location, I spotted some cast members look my way and rolled their eyes so hard. I greeted everybody and immediately joined the table of Maurice and Harry, reached out for my black birkin and fished out my Chanel makeup case to slap more powder on. 
A member of the public came up to me and asked if I was the mayor of Melbourne city. 😂😂😂 
And so I filmed for that one scene that day, took photos for publicity materials (the official photographer was a huge delight to work with) and left for tea with Rudo all the while with my mind still wondering heavily if the axe was headed for my neck!! XOXOX